Friday, November 6, 2009

UVM reflections


After a harrowing week leading up to the exhibit debut, I arrived at University of Vermont at 6 am to install the exhibit. All went well and it was set up by time the Translating Identities Conference began.

The exhibit was set up in a large lobby area central to the conference space. The cozy chairs gave the space a relaxed feeling which fit well with the intention of the installation.

The workshop got off to a rocky beginning when the session was misprinted, but about sixty people got to see the website. Many of them left earlier when I invited them to take a look at the exhibit themselves.

TIC monitors informed me that many people who came during sessions took the time to watch the videos and/or read the panels. In between session I witnessed several people reading panels or discussing topics raised in the exhibit. Every time I got the chance, I brought out more printed material. By the end of the day, an estimated 800 people had passed through the space and taken the 200 exhibit companions and 100 zines. The day had been a success!

Donation!

The project received it's first monetary donation in the week leading up to the exhibit opening on October the 24th! The donation was enough to cover the web costs for the year. Thank you a lot Mr. Pangborn.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Vocalo Airing: A Killer Without Remorse

Vocalo is airing the audio doc I made about the Sexual Minorities Archives. Unfortunately, they referred to Bet by the wrong pronoun, I sent them a strongly worded e-mail saying they needed to correct that before they aired it. More details about the airing below:


A Killer Without Remorse
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Original broadcast

* Monday, October 12th, 2009 7:00am - 10:00am

Your host: Tom

Archive: No archive currently available.

Featured Vocaleros: susi7, TechieTranny, KarenGollrad, BLACKOUT
The Rundown

7:00am She told her shrink she wanted to be a man. Dating women.

8:00am Tortured and murdered in Wyoming because he was gay, Matthew Shepard became a national symbol of violence driven by hate. A new play talks to his killer, who ten years after the crime, expresses no remorse.

9:00am Music saves lives. A peace corps of musicians. They come to the rescue with instruments and learning.

And on the 20's, weather and traffic with Chester, the Vocalo.org traffic horse.
Playlist
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1.
Unnatural Cause Part III
Unnatural Cause Part III
Segment by susi7
Oct 10, 2009
2.
Bet Power I: The Archives
Bet Power I: The Archives
Audio
Segment by TechieTranny
Oct 10, 2009
3.
Pin-Up, Pilt-Down by Blamaday
Pin-Up, Pilt-Down by Blamaday
Audio
Segment by KarenGollrad
Oct 9, 2009
4.
Wrestle

Saturday, October 10, 2009

More clips online

New film clips edits are up on youtube and on the website.



Louis Mitchell, a founding member of LAGADDA (Lesbians and Gays of African Decent for Democratic Action), speaks to sectarian differences in 1980's San Fransisco.



This is the first in a series of clips addressing the relationship between Transmasculinity and feminism. This features Alex Pangborn, a transgender activist, talking about addressing sexism before and after transitioning.


It's two weeks away from the exhibit debut and I've edited about 3/4 of my videos (different from the ones on the website). I've added a Merch page to the site and am looking into different methods to make the docs more referencable before adding too many more.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Vocalo debut and Improvments (Sept)

I edited together a story about housing discrimination which you can find under short docs.

It will e airing on vocalo, a collaborative radio station based out of Chicago, IL.

I've been going through another round of improvements on the website as I am determined to make it more navigable. For your convenience there is now a google search bar and will be a tag cloud as soon as I figure out the glitches. That is all a work in progress.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

TIC Proposal Accepted

I got an email last week telling me that my Translating Identities proposal has been accepted. I am talking with the people to see what kind of space is available so I can move forward with my design plans.

I am also pricing out banners and blue print printing in order to get a rough estimate of what the exhibit will cost to put together.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Updating website

So the access tv show didn't work out as I had hoped. Due to technical difficulties, the person running the show could not play the clip on air. Most of the talk time ended up being taken up by trans 101 type stuff.

I did end up updating the website though. Most of things you might not notice. But I have changed the archives section to education tools and I will be uploading different kinds of material to be used for education in community-type spaces or public school classrooms or academic research. That will all be available free to download for anyone who wants it, and as always users are welcome to send me any content they would like to be available on that page as well.

Lastly, I have added a paypal secure donate button on most of the pages with rotating content. I am wanting to make all the material accessible to people of all income levels, but I also am paying for the webspace and bandwidth to run the project out of my own pocket. Pleas consider donating a few bucks if you can.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Air Time

I am leaving momentarily to go to the cable access station where I will be interviewed for the Gay liberation network's TV show. They will show the new preview clip from the trans oral history project.

Catch it on air tonight on cable channel 21 in Chicago from 6:30-7:00.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

New content!

Hey all,

I have finally uploaded the second interview clip form bet power, entitle legacy. It's better than the first, so I urge you to check it out.

Also, I am going on the Gay Liberation Network's Chicago Public access TV show on Friday. I composed a clip from the project to show on air, and that can be viewed on youtube if you look on the channel TransOralHistory. There is also a link on the webpage under short docs.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Progress Since May

I have not updated this blog in months but I have been making progress, so here is a quick rundown…

MAY

I wrote into the Translating Identities Conference telling them about my project and asking if I could do an instillation of the exhibit during the conference at the end of October. They responded very positively and encouraged me to apply to host a session.

JUNE

I got a call from Brattleboro, Vermont asking if I could make a video clip to show at gallery walk, a monthly festival where art galleries stay open late and host various events. The Hooker Dunham Theatre was showing a queer rights film in honor of stonewall and wanted to use show a clip in the Gallery space. I create a small clip and sent in a flyer with info about me and the project on it.

I edited a clip from Bet Power’s interview and uploaded it to the website. It was the official first short doc clip.

JULY


I also moved to Chicago where I got in contact with people from GednerWorks and the Gay Liberation network. A cross-dresser who works with GLN agreed to be interviewed and expressed interest in conducting some oral history interviews.

The GLN invited me to be interviewed on their Public Access TV show. I am still waiting to confirm the interview but I will post about it if I end up doing it.

I finally filled out a bio and session form for the Translating Identities Conference and am e-mailing the transcending boundaries conference.

I am off to the Allied Media Conference as I type this. The conference kicks off with a session about transgender representation in independent media. Armed with flyers, business cards, and enthusiasm, I’m ready to meet potential allies.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Website Finished (for now)

After months of development, I am nearing a stopping point in designing the website. I am still not exactly pleased with a few elements, and I definitely have some major web projects ahead of me for next semester (like a fancy animated timeline, and an exhibit walk through). But for the moment I am pretty satisfied with the ground work I have laid and am eager to get working on content! Check out the site.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

San Fransisco Historical Society


The San Fransisco's GLBT Historical Society has an exhibit going up about the transformation (aka gentrification) of Polk Street in the 1980's. I have contacted the exhibit curator about using his material in my exhibit. He seems friendly and sympathetic, so it looks like it will work out.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Web Design

So I haven't done work adding to the actual project in a long time. Hopefully I will rectify that somewhat before the semester ends. However, I have been working on designing a new website which will have interactive elements. I'm talking to artist about helping me bring to fruition my vision for the homepage, I was going to post the basic layout but the image's color were all off. I hope this is not indicative of a larger issue. I will post images within the next week.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Bet Update

I went to Northampton today. I got some footage of the town with a few inches of snow on the ground. I realized how much good footage I could have gotten this summer if I had only had a camera on long term lease. even though the footage wasn't nearly as good as it would have been during the summer, I felt pretty good about what I got. Soon, I will edit together a preview clip with it.

While I was in town, I went to visit Bet Power, the curator of the Sexual Minorities Archives. He is doing somewhat better even though he has a serious lung/throat/larynx condition. He has tons of doctors visits coming up. I went to Florence to check the mail for the East Coast FTM group and the archives. Then we chatted for a bit. He can speak if he whispers. He seemed really appreciative of the help. I'm hoping he gets better soon.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Bet Powers is Ill

I have kept in contact with Bet Power who has helped me immensely in continuing the Transgender Oral History Project. I scheduled a fourth trip to the archives in November in order to film the physical space and scout out artifacts for the exhibit I am planning. He responded that he was sick, and could not host me. He has canceled ECFTM meetings, all Sexual minorities Archive visits, and his job search for the past two months.

On December the tenth, I found out that he has been hospitalized due to serious lung infection and complications of the larynx. He has been diagnosed with pneumonia and is undergoing several tests as he waits for a diagnosis. A close friend of his through the ECFTM has set-up a website (http://www.carepages.com/carepages/BetsFamily) in order to give mass updates on Bet’s condition and facilitate Bet receiving letters of support from the geographically dispersed ECFTM network. Members of the local trans community are using the forum to form carpools to visit Bet and bring him care packages.

****YOU CAN HELP***
If you have a laptop you are not using, he needs one in order o be able to acess the website. If you could donate it (temporarily) let me know. cperez@marlboro.edu

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Oral History Exhibit Proposal (1st Draft)

Background

I started The Transgender Oral History Project as a means to uncover the rich, though often invisible history of transgender political activism. Stories including trans people often become a tiny portion of a subgroup that is largely dominated by normative elements who marginalize them in order to create an image that is more palatable to the mainstream. Furthermore, the narratives Americans are exposed to are so limiting—they are the stories of an individual who struggles with their own body or else the story of victimization by illogical violence. I want to tell different stories… ones that highlight how trans people have been pushed out of self-proclaimed safe spaces and have been abused by the psychiatric and medical establishments under the guise of treating them. I want to talk about the violence that happens when our entire society operates on logics that systematically force trans people to exist on the margins of society—refused healthcare, left out of government programming, and refused gainful employment. But I it would be missing the point to tell a history of oppression without the correlating history of resistance. I want to tell the stories of riots against police brutality, volunteering services in trans-specific health centers, reclaiming public spaces for people who have nowhere else to go, and civil rights marches for legal protections—a legacy of empowerment through community organizing.

Overview: The Basic Idea

I would like to create a multimedia historical exhibit that leads the audience in exploring the
issues that have fostered the evolution of the trans community over the past fifty years. I hope to engage viewers in the passage of time by creating a spatial representation of a timeline that they move through as they move through space. The timeline will portray the events and conditions trans people were operating within, but also the collective responses that enabled trans people to deal with these circumstances. I hope to make viewer think about how this community necessitated by a hostile environment that is not of its making but more importantly, to see the means by which this community has constituted itself.

I plan to accomplish this through using a combination of text, photography, ephemera, audio, and film. The central three AV elements will be video clips of vignettes from the Transgender Oral History Project situated within the context of the time period as created through the timeline. I am concerned with showing how the historical moment frames what is possible for people’s lives by showcasing stories that exemplify how this intersection is experienced.

Audience: Marlboro and Beyond

I see two distinct audiences for my piece—one of normative people with liberal political sympathies and one made up of people who understand themselves as gender-variant.
Of primary concern to me are people who understand themselves as gender-variant. I believe collective action and movement building begins with seeing ourselves as having common experiences and drawing from a shared sense of history as well as having shared ambitions for the future. This project is, at least in part, my own search for community, but I want it to extend further than that. I hope that I can engage other people who identify as transgender as seeing themselves as part of something larger. I want to reach people for whom exploring how the trans community has been shaped and where it is going, is a profoundly personal matter.
My goal is that I can communicate the continuing need for community while encouraging collective action.

My secondary audience is the Marlboro community. I anticipate this exhibit being different in two major ways. First of all, I intend to have more contextualizing information, more explanation and analysis. The purpose of the Marlboro version will be to introduce this community to the transgender community’s struggle and to make connections between the trans community and other communities we study or may even be a part of. In the process of exploring how transgender activism has intersected with, been co-opted by, and collided with the womyn’s and Gay and Lesbian rights movements, I want the community to think about inclusion within their own social circles and subcultures. Secondly, I will be hoping to address to concern stated above about how limited the portrayals of trans people are in mass media by presenting competing narratives. I want viewers to see a more multidimensional version of how trans people understand themselves within the context of broader society.

Logistics: Venues and Timing

Because it will be more of an overview, I feel like I already have access to the material I need in order to create this exhibit on campus. For this reason I would like to explore creating the exhibit next semester. I also understand the drawbacks since it would be more competitive to get gallery space and it would mean my outside examiner could not experience it. I am not even sure that the gallery is the best space for the project because of acoustics (I am concerned about how loud it will be if there are multiple, differing AV components), monitoring (I will be using electronic equipment that is expensive and am unsure of how to ensure it does not get stolen), and space (movement is central to my idea and I am unsure of how to create the kind of movement I want to in that open of a space).

Because my target audience is necessarily a scattered population, I do not know what kind of venues would be most appropriate for this exhibit. There is a yearly conference put on at UVM that I have attended for three years now: the Translating Identities Conference. It seeks to build community and provide a forum for the exchange information among trans communities throughout the northeast. I see my project as being very in line with this goal, so I think it would be a good fit.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Installation possibilities

What was most immediately interesting to me about the project was the actual footwork--doing interviews, starting conversations, visiting archives. Now that I have collected some material, I am spending more time think about what I am actually ging to do with it. I started out my project assuming I was going to make a documentary. However, lately I've been thinking about alternative ways to present my material. I want to involve people in history; help them feel connected to it; engage them in the process of building connections through it.

I've come up with the idea of creating an interactive multimedia history exhibit. It will be more work, but there is the potential of soliciting community involvement, which is very appealing to me. Also, it could be presented in various situations and tweaked to the audience. It would start on campus, but then I would hope to put it in more queer places, like at next year's Translating Identities Conference.

More to come as the idea unfolds...

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Class Issues and the Transgender Community

10/22/08

I've been at the task of making generalizations about the trans people I've met over the last 6 months of researching and being fairly active in trans communities in the area, and the one set of issues that comes to the surface most blantantly is class issues.

If the standard of living of normative society could be measured on a 1-10 scale, I think the whole spectrum of transfolk could fit within 1-6 and probably would cluster around 2-4. What does it mean that I was part of an organizing body whose six core members were mostly underemployed or unemployed despite having marketable skills (the group included a lawyer, a marketing executive, a web developer)? These are the leaders. They and others like them are the people in our community who have the most education and stability who are most willing and able to start families. These are our success stories. And among the people I admire most in our community, none of them have health insurance. Many of them are married to bio-women who make more money than they do (we all know that bio-women make 75% of what bio-men do). Many are part-time employees. Few own the houses they live in. Most do a little bit of a lot of things to barely make ends meet.

It's not just that the trans community are poor, but that we are one of the only downwardly mobile communities I can think of (if you ave others then please leave a comment). This means that on average trans people have less wealth than their parents. Whereas most people maintain the same level of wealth as their parents or even gain wealth (because they have access to cultural capital that helps them accrue wealth) to pass onto future generations. What does it mean that our children are less likely to go to college than we were, less likely to own a house, less likely to have access to any number of opportunities purely by virtue of their parent's gender identity/expression?

Meeting Allison Bechdel

04/03/08

As she read from her memoir, publicly displaying the lascauxian creation myth of herself as a queer artist, she peered out at us from beneath her brow furrowed in uninhibited anxiety. It had made an irrevocable impression on me how she had defined her past into discrete panels of reflection. Her persona was more awkward than funny, her comic more tragic than funny. I could relate to the dry, absurdist tendencies of my own malformed humor.

There was a fastidious quality that permeated her voice as she recounted episodes of OCD that made up her artistic process. Apparently it involved posing and taking pictures of herself for every character she draws before embarking on creating the panel detailed in minutia. That’s thousands of pictures over the course of the entire graphic novel. Then there were a series of layers drawn by hand and on the computer, super imposed over one another and melded into a painstaking whole. It comes out to several hours per square inch. “There went a whole weekend” she would joke, flipping through sketches of the Victorian wallpaper endemic in her childhood home. I could so clearly imagine her silhouetted in a lonely house etching the images that her (understandable) resentment had seared into her psyche. What is the difference between the compulsions that enhance our humanity and those that detract from it?

The familiarity of her fidgety and uneven breathing escalated during the q&a period when she as she squinched her face up into a lost expression as she told us she didn’t understand why she did what she did. She almost seemed to plead to the audience to validate her compulsion. Her openness was uneasy on both sides. She seemed pretty desperate about the manner.

How do the stories we tell shape who we are? How do they limit or expand the ways we can understand ourselves? The way we can relate and connect? How does making sense of the world and oneself in relation to it lend justification to our existence? Is there any such thing as credibly and authenticity when one tells one’s own story? How do we prove to ourselves that certain stories belong to us? Why do some people need to share?

Mission Photo Shoot

Mission photo shoot. This was my first attempt to tell a story through the imagery of gender and its manipulation. It was exciting and fun but it felt strange to be doing it alone. I am interested in drag performance and how it informs the gender of those who participate in it. How does gender play push forward identity development? What is problematic about playing something you live? How does performance and preformativity frame gender identity?